Had a bit of the Winter Blues yesterday. Wanted desperately to book a vacation to someplace warm. Had enough shoveling this season. (Mike was nice enough to point out that I have done ALMOST ALL of the shoveling this season!)
Felt down. Felt as if we NEVER GO ANYWHERE. (Mike reminds me that we spent a weekend in the Dells... and I just went to my parent's house for the weekend.) Part of me just misses GOING PLACES. You know, like NEW ADVENTURES. Felt depressed about the near-constant reminders that WE DON'T HAVE MONEY.
Felt anxious about the thought of my little boy going to kindergarten in the fall. Anxiety-filled because a small part of me fears that we will get all of our ducks in a row, only to discover that we'll be uprooted before it happens. (You know, like the time I convinced Mike to upgrade our license plates from WI to MN, only for him to get transferred a short time later. We've always teased that we'll get our house the way we want it, only to move... we put a new roof on and installed many new windows last year.)
Discouraged by the checkbook. Wanting to do auto bill payments next time around... as my brain struggles with spending money while earning NOTHING. Plus, I am NOT a numbers girl; that hurts my poor brain! (Seriously, it is expensive almost every time I leave the house! Gas, groceries, cat supplies... I was relieved when I sent Mike & Silas to the store and he realized HOW QUICKLY things add up! Tell me about it... I feel badly every time I shop!)
I miss opening the windows. I miss the sounds of the birds singing. I miss the smell of grass. I miss picnics. (Silas keeps BEGGING to have a picnic; we've eaten on the picnic blanket a few times recently.) I miss being outside with the boys!
That settles it... I'm going to go light my Yankee GRASS-scented candle while I go read a book!
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